My hard times

While this topic is hard for many to talk about I share my story in hopes that I can inspire someone to reach out and ask for the help they need. While bullying was always apart of my school career, it began to get worse around middle school and horrendous around high school. I always felt out of place around other people and just like I didn't belong. That was always me, the weird quite kid in the back of the classroom. I remember at one point I just said to myself "Why even be here when no one wants you?". These thoughts happened for many years, they eventually got to a point where I actually developed a plan to kill myself. I never really expressed to anyone that I wanted to hurt myself I just let my emotions fester and bottled up everything I was going through. I never realized how many people were there to help me in life. I eventually opened up to a counselor about my feelings and what I was going through, they got me help and they gave me resources to help express myself and cope with the emotions I was going through in life. I was called every name in the book going through school, loser, f*g, queer, stupid, fat and many more. I would take those words like nothing mattered to me and I would just move on with life, or so I thought. At one point in my life I started to have nightmares where I would just be running and crying and eventually fall off of a cliff at the end. My nightmares would wake me up out of a dead sleep and keep me from sleeping after that. I eventually I reached out for help and talked with someone. I made it through the darkest time in my life with help of friends, family, and a counselor.

Just remember that there is always someone there to help you whether its a family member or a complete stranger. Don't be afraid to ask for the help you deserve.